Is there a pattern here?
by tamarjacobson
I had a good day at work yesterday. The sun was shining, cool breeze in the air for my drive in. Successful meeting and I got things done! As I drove home I felt pleased. Satisfied. I achieved something. Nothing huge. But something. I am learning the ropes. Finding my way. And there is support for me to do just that. Last Tuesday similar doings. The first part of yesterday’s completion.
Last Wednesday I awoke from a fitful, turbulent sleep with a violent migraine. As the day progressed I felt worse and worse about myself. Even feelings like "What’s it all about?" haunted me during the day as I tried to do what needed to be done.
This Wednesday? You guessed it! I awoke from a fitful, turbulent sleep with a violent migraine. As the day progressed I felt worse and worse about myself. Even feelings like "What’s it all about?" haunted me during the day as I tried to do what needed to be done.
And so, as T. was leaving for work with the world’s greatest fruit shake made by yours most truly, I stopped him at the door.
"Is there a pattern here?" I asked as I explained that lately when I have a good day – the next one is a pure downer, physically and emotionally. Rhetorical question I guess because he smiled and smiled.
I waved him off to his car, came inside slowly and closed the door behind me. Reaching for my blog there’s a smile on my face.
Funny how breaking a pattern sometimes comes from just speaking it out loud.
Well, for today at least …
tamarjacobson 
Jean,
I had not heard that about migraines and release of tension. That makes a lot of sense to me. More to think about!
Rhea,
Writing it down. Yes indeed. And that’s the name of my blog! So it works for you too, eh?
Breaking the pattern and emerging from darkness. I put Neil and Adriana together and presto! Wisdom!
fp,
Hmm … there is nothing as glorious as that “stretched thin” feeling after yoga. Especially partner yoga – what a concept! Sharing! Am excited for you. And, yes … I do know what you mean. Thank you.
Mindfulness. Awareness. Giving. Love. I could put these thoughts together in coherent sentences, but why bother? You know what I mean. just got back from partner yoga and feeling kind of stretched thin which is a good thing for a fatty to feel.
Yes, yes, isn’t it a relief to emerge from the darkness?
I think you just hit on the golden rule — breaking the pattern.
I’ve often heard it said that migraine can be caused by relaxation after tension, that’s why so many people get them at weekends. So perhaps the problem isn’t successful Tuesdays, but anxious Mondays? Hope you feel better, Tamar, and your new job continues to go well.
Sometimes when lots of things are piling up on me, if I write it all down and I can ‘see’ everything, it helps. Sort of like what you experienced by saying it.