So long, farewell
by tamarjacobson
Time to say goodbye. To bid 2006 cheerio. It has been busy, no doubt about that. Not only physically and professionally, but emotionally. In a way it has seemed like I have been living through the conclusion chapter to my therapy experience with Bob all those years ago together. As I look back over this passing year, it feels as if the dust settled, storm subsided, and out of the mist, images of my self, feelings, understanding took form, gained shape, and became clear. I have found myself quite often just sitting, staring, feeling, grasping, realizing, and, even, silently gasping: "Aha!"
Honestly though, I think this has been only part of the conclusion chapter. The revelation section.
Two thousand and seven has a really good sound to it. I have always loved number seven. It bodes well. Perhaps this section of the therapy conclusion chapter will include practical application to the revelations I have allowed myself to uncover from within the emotional memory of my brain. For example, what will I choose to do about taking back my birthright? How will I regain what is rightfully mine? Confidence, feeling beloved, wanted, and worthy of respect. What actions will I take to realize these understandings? How will they affect work, my marriage, relationships with family members, friends, my sexuality, growing older? What kinds of things will I do to nurture, cherish and love my ever lonely, aching, deprived inner child?
It is quite exciting really, if not a little daunting. But it took 57 years to arrive at this place, so patience might have to be foremost in these deliberations and applications.
Ah, but I have noticed that the days are already becoming longer.
Happy New Year one and all.
tamarjacobson 
Ronni, Happy New Year!
Richard,
Have been thinking and wondering about you. So good to hear from you.Happy New Year.
Thank you for the deep and important list of questions, which, like most people, I’d do well to confront. Happy New Year, Tamarika!
Happy New Year, Tamar, and my biggest, best wishes for a fruitful 2007 for you.
Thanks so much for the good wishes, Joy.
Well, Winston, we’ve all made it to the other side of midnight. Woo hoo!
MaryB,
Perhaps this is the year we get to meet in person eh? I enjoy reading your life sharings too, so much.
Happy New Year, Always Question!
Danny, thanks for the good wishes. No, it doesn’t look like I will be giving up the blog any time soon. It has become an integral part of my life now.
Joyce,
It has taken me a lot of years of life and therapy to get to this point and I still have quite a way to go! I think what might have “accelerated” some of my revelations was this move to Philadelphia which threw me into being very much alone with myself – no work, no friends – just face-to-face with me. Phew! Exhausting. Smiles.
And to you too Tamar! All the very best of health, happiness, love and peace in the New Year dear friend…
It’s been an interesting year, indeed, Tamar. In the midst of all my chaos of 2006, I’ve enjoyed sharing your experiences of the year, as well. In doing that, I become less the “focal point of the universe” and more a part of a common humanity. I love reading your thoughts and take on life. A very Happy (Growing, Leaping, Joy-filled) 2007, my friend!
Happy New Year, Tamar.
Wishing you and all who love you every happiness throughout the coming year.
My adrenaline started racing when I read your first line because I thought you were quitting your blog. I’m quite relieved that you’re not! Happy New Year to you and Tom, Tamar, and much happiness in 2007.
Questions that we all ask. Answers to which never become totally clear. But questions that we all must continue to ask.
I look forward to seeing you on the other side of midnight…
Sounds like a lovely place to be in life. I am but a couple and a half short years behind you, but feel lightyears behind in some respects. Perhaps the learning begins to accelerate at some point. 🙂