tamarjacobson

Looking back and thinking forward

Twilight time

Cornish hens in the oven, broccoli steaming on the stove, glass of Gerolsteiner to sip on, and Ada out on the sun porch waiting for the neighbor’s cat. He always comes out early evening to sit under the bird feeder. He looks like a leaner, meaner version of our old Molly Mable and has sharp, suspicious eyes glinting as the sun sets. Ada sits out on the blanket covered table and watches and waits. Now and then she comes into my study purring and clicking to greet me, checking to see if I am still here, before she goes out again.

Twilight. My second favorite time of the day after dawn. It settles the day that has passed, summarizing all the challenges and delights. It has been a good day. Great work-out, day starting with strength and momentum, a delicious fruit shake blended in my new machine, an easy commute accompanied by Eric Clapton back and forth from work, lunch with colleagues filled with laughter and sharing of tales – personal and professional, meeting with students, chatting on the phone to an old friend from Buffalo as I drove back, arriving home feeling full and happy with humanity. There is something solid, constant and present about today.

Marion, from Buffalo, said on the phone this afternoon, "Tam, you sound happier and stronger than I think I have ever heard you."

In like a lion

Herecomesthesun

March. Women’s History Month.

My history month.

Two years ago I made a stand against a person who terrorized and bullied me for many, many years.

Two years ago I said, "I am not going to take it. I don’t deserve it."

I made my history two years ago in March.

It has been a struggle since then. I have had to fight off inner demons and ancient pains, wild nights of fear, shame and guilt.

This year, starting with My History Month, I am going to wrap myself around me and give me compassionate, unconditional love wherever and whenever I can.

I have always said to parents: "No one will fight for your child but you."

And so, from today, I pledge to myself that I will fight for me. I will make a stand for me. I will parent me.

Here Comes the Sun:

Women’s History Month cometh (Update)

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Quote of the day:

One is not born a woman, one becomes one. Simone de Beauvoir

Update:

Oh, and by the way, over at Frank’s Listics Gandhi says some smart stuff.