Food reflections
by tamarjacobson
Sitting in Starbucks thinking while eating the croissant I just ordered:
Soft and warm half way through body not hungry thoughts stray to ultrasound and up upcoming biopsy must live life to the fullest right now and what about my relationships with men? Always complicated and full of longing Charlie was the first time I realized my immortality and that I was lovable …
No need for the croissant now … Throw half of it away as tears fill my eyes.
Fear, longing good feelings worth exploring further – no need to numb them with food – just want to feel them some more … full up now … my soul I mean … With feelings – not food.
Blog posted here.
tamarjacobson 
We would certainly want to have some slack in the food system so that unexpected drops in production in a particular region can be compensated by production from other regions.
Wow, Sky. Thanks for sharing that with me! Am so glad it all turned out all right for you.
I had a bit of a scare back in 2008 and so this is a really tiresome second time thing. But, for some reason, I am not as worried as I was two years ago.
I guess I realized back then, finally, that I am immortal – and so now I feel calmer about everything.
Thanks so much for your good wishes. Much appreciated.
just a note to say i am thinking of you. the limbo part of such worry is hard. i went through a GYN scare in 2007 with ultrasound, MRIs, and 4 outpatient surgeries over the following 24 months that ultimately ended in major surgery and thankfully NO CANCER, to the relief and surprise of us all. sending many good wishes your way.
Dear Jean – thanks for always *being there!* I think all will be well – more like a routine thing … but always the chance … well you know – it’s the age for it 🙂
Love you!
This sounds difficult and worrying. Thinking of you, Tamar. xxx