Abundantly

by tamarjacobson

Thanksgiving rolling in tomorrow, and this one will be a quiet day for us. Just life partner and me sharing our turkey and pumpkin pie.

I am looking forward to unpacking the Christmas decorations this weekend and seeing how they look in our new house.

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The family arrived yesterday from UNICEF. I must say, the African wooden figurines fit perfectly with our mission style house and decor.

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The cactuses on my window sill are starting to bloom …

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some …

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… more than others …

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Ada is always right here …

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… and Son … in my thoughts …

Gratitude is in abundance this year. My thankful for … list seems endless … including life partner, our new home, family and friends, and a wonderful place to work, with smart, compassionate, and intriguing students, as well as collegial and supportive faculty and administration …

… but I must say that the list begins with my therapist.

No doubt about it! 

For, this whole year he has slowly, gently, consistently – helped me understand how to acknowledge and, more importantly, experience my emotions – feel my feelings – to the core of my being. Ah yes, it is uncomfortable – even excruciating at times. I cannot deny that. For I thought my defenses and old patterns had kept me safe for sixty years. Indeed, I am getting to know my Self like never before. I seem to be constantly relearning, and realizing realities that are new and different – and there is no turning back.

There are moments when I feel like I am seeing clearly for the first time … coming into the light …

… 'Tis the season, all right – from darkness to the light.

And Hanukah begins next week too.

Hm … so I think I will go down and unpack the Hanukia - clean it up in readiness … 

A year ago at Mining Nuggets: Quotes of the day & Lists