Rewriting the emotional script

by tamarjacobson

Quote of the day:

Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me. Cheryl Strayed

Rewriting my emotional script is only possible once I have come to a clear understanding of how it was acquired. More importantly, though, is the realization that while the script I developed about myself was necessary to help me survive as a child, it is irrelevant to who I have become today.

In fact, all it does for me lately is get in the way, and hold me back. 

Indeed, I have spent years exploring and researching the emotional memories and experiences of my earliest years. I did that by interviewing significant family members and friends, through writing this blog and two books, and with the guidance of professional therapists.

Lately, I have the feeling that my researching-the-self period is coming to an end. There are very few stones I have left unturned. And, I am weary of the journey.

In fact, I feel more than prepared to tell me a different story about myself, even though I am sure I will regress from time to time to yearnings and ancient pains.

However, that won't get in the way as I strive to perceive me differently. For, there is no going back now.